out of sight is out of mind

this concept is quite multi pronged as i have realised over the past few weeks. now that i have moved out of home, away from my friends, i have moved to the edges of their concsious memory too. just as they have to mine. although i probably miss them more than they collectively miss me, and though i may like to deny this, it is true that this realisation has set in with a trace of regret and sadness too. further, while my life has changed and there is something new happening here all the time, this is not the case with people back home. so the "whats up" may mean a lot to me, but it is not true vice versa, at least not anymore. there is so much to tell, so much to tell, so much to tell, that time, curiosity and patience all fall short. thankfully, this blog helps me unwind, even though it still keeps me out of sight.

on the other hand, i am also experiencing the insight-inmind concept, which is an obvious corollary to the above. it maybe a badly constructed name, but it is the crux of what we are all here to do at IESE. network, and thus secure a career. the more you are visible, the more you are connected, the better it is for you, the better you are using you time at this b-school. and thats why we see all the socialising, even to the point of being polite just for the sake of it, and in one's mind, hating it all for the sheer formality that it is. i even reached a bottom pit of frustration just a few days back. reminded me of all those dusty cobwebbed swear words. the why-am-i-here, what-am-i-doing syndrome hit me. yes, even before the orientation started. and ironically, it was a day and night full of networking events that brought me back to the routine world, away from the depressing reality check. i wouldnt deny that networking at this stage and in this form, is temporary and extremely formal, but i wouldnt deny that these activities can also be fun.

so while i am here, and having paid good money for this, i would rather enjoy every flavour of this madness, and make it worth the increased distance and decreased connection with the people i have known all my life until now, and getting to know people i may become friends with for all my life ahead. so here is the gurumantra:

i guess sometimes its good to understand and accept life as it is, rather than fight it for a result that you can neither visualise nor understand.